A Test of Faith: Saying Goodbye to Boone
When I began this blog, I decided to focus on topics related to leadership, parenthood, and worldview development. My wife and I are currently experiencing our biggest parenting challenge yet. If you’ve ever had to say goodbye to a loved one, you will understand. Somewhat.
I say somewhat because our situation brought us challenges we never thought we’d face, and raised question we didn’t know existed. The decisions we’ve had to make are uncommon, shared by a relative handful of families, each situation having its own nuance and outcome. Over the past month, we became members of a new club fully against our will.
We lost our child.
We were expecting Boone Shepherd Ladd on June 15th. He was our sixth child and could not have had a more excited family waiting for him to arrive. Boone had a condition called Trisomy 18, or Edwards syndrome. It is a difficult diagnosis.
Karry became critically ill with severe preeclampsia, and Boone was born in the early morning of April 16th, 2015. Boone was beautiful, and he spent 58 minutes with us before his spirit went to be with Lord.
From the day we learned of Boone’s condition, I started writing. For myself, for sure, but for others as well. And I think we’ll share it. But not now. Not yet.
As for my faith? It is not shaken.
I’m not asking why. I know why. We live in a broken world, a fallen world. Bad things happen to good people, and people leave us before we are ready.
But I also know that all things work together for good for those who love God and are called according to his purposes.
I can’t be like David. I can’t just get up, change my clothes, and eat (2 Samuel, Chapter 12). Maybe my faith just isn’t as strong or complete as his. But eventually I will get up. Eventually, I will change my clothes. And eventually, I will eat.
I will go to Boone, but he will not return to me. That will be hard. But we have been blessed beyond measure, and we are already rich beyond our wildest dreams.
And we are thankful for the blessing of Boone.
About Jason B. Ladd
Jason is an author, speaker, Marine, and father of seven. He has flown the F/A-18 Hornet as a Marine Aviation Weapons and Tactics Squadron 1 (MAWTS-1) Instructor Pilot and the F-16 as an Instructor Pilot. His award-winning book One of the Few: A Marine Fighter Pilot’s Reconnaissance of the Christian Worldview has been optioned for film adaptation. He is represented by Julie Gwinn of The Seymour Agency.